Thursday, January 15, 2009

My birthday is in 2 days. It sucks. I will be 49 years old. 49!!!!!!

Dustin was ill today, but went to work, any way. He is 21. I am worried about him. He is all over the place. Quitting college. Going back to college. Moving to one city. Moving back. Now, he says he is going to join the Air National Guard. I think it would do him good. Of course, I hate to see him go to basic training. It would be tough. Especially, the first week, but in the end, it would be good for him. It will help him get focused. I would not say, he has my bi-polar, but he has something. I hope it is just, being immature and him still being young.

He is living with his friends. The Air National Guard would not be hard on him, because of him, being away from me. He has been his own person, since he turned 10. The moment we moved over on Duke, he was off on his bike to see the world. He was always going somewhere, within the neigborhood. I made sure, where he was going and checked up on him, but he still had a lot of freedom. Lots of freedom. Maybe I gave him too much freedom. Oh well. Cannot take it back. He is a man, now. I did a great job.

It is hard, being a parent. I thought it would get easier, once he was grown, but I still worry just as much. I wish he was three, again. Really. He was such a cute little boy. Now, he is a handsome man, but I worry about his weight. He has lost weight. He is going to be like me and his father. Thin. That is good, but not when, you lose too much weight. I think he is stressed.

My son. He is all I have.

I bought another gun. It fits easily in my hand. I will practice shooting this weekend. The automatic is not my cup of tea. This 38 Smith @ Wesson is perfect. The revolver is so simple. Flip it out. Put the bullets in and shoot. I am going to take the courses to carry. I see, real bad times coming. It is true. Bad times are coming. Hope for the best. Prepare for the worst.

The American people are so angry and our rich elite traitors, are so out of touch with the reality of what we go through. I know they do not care. They are idiots.

I cannot understand, why the American people allow themselves to be led, by such evil brainless dumbfucks.

The only thing, I can say about Obama being elected, is: It is going to be interesting to watch. We are on the brink of total collapse. Obama will do find, if he stays to the middle, but I do not think he will. Time will tell.