January 11, 2009 Sunday

I am still worried about my cancer coming back. It will be 2 years and 5 months, since my original diagnosis. I am so afraid sometimes. I feel as if, I have a death sentence hanging over my head. Most of the time, I just go through the motions of a day. I pray for an absolute cure every day. It has not happened yet.

Jesus, my brother, my father. Never let my breast cancer come back. Never let me have cancer, ever again. Never let me have to go through chemo, again. Jesus, cure my body of all the damage, the Taxol and radiation did to my body. Let my body kill every single cancer cell, that might not want to die. Let them find an absolute cure for metastasized triple negative breast cancer, long before any cancer cells, could even think of growing in my body. Let them find a cure for all cancers. Today.

I have to live to see my son have children.

I HAVE TO LIVE!!!!!!!